creative writing: I don't feel like dancing tonight

Today is my Birthday. Is it October 19^th. For many of you Birthdays are the days when you have a good enough reason to go out and celebrate. For me it's no different than any other day. It only reminds me how little friends I've got. None, to be precise.

I suppose my disadvantage is that I'm not pretty. I am not ugly, don't get me wrong, but I'm no ideal of beauty. I'd be lying if I said I didn't mind. Of course I'd love to be good looking and have people stand in line to be friends with me. Everybody wants to be friends with pretty people and I am the same so I guess I can't objurgate. 

I light up a candle on the cake I got earlier today.  I lied to the man in the bakery and said it's for a friend's surprise party. I always lie to strangers. 

I think of a mature wish to make. 

Birthdays are my least favourite days of the year. It didn't always use to be like this but I can't exactly remember when it changed. It's all a little blurry.

I close my eyes and blow the candle. Dad has already called me today to wish me Happy Birthday so the apartment is completely quiet. I grab the sound system remote and put it back down immediately. The silence is somehow comforting.

self portrait challenge

My friend Ade found this online and said I should do it. Chelsey from The Paper Mama has a photo challenge up on her blog, she asks her readers to take a self portrait and blog about themselves. So this post is about me and me only. I am using the Currently posts of Danielle's blog. I went crazy and took more than one portrait and spent a good few hours playing around with the pictures in photoshop.

Obsessing over

creative writing! I am taking a module in it and I am enjoying it perhaps a little too much. Only need to actually produce more short stories. I have also met a guy yesterday that does MA in Creative Writing and we have decided to do a fiction swap. He's going to send me some of his pieces and I'll send him mine (at this very moment I only have 3). I am still very much excited about it. Also, I hope he writes a short story about me. Haha.

And also blogging! Lately I have been playing with the design of this blog and just been thinking about how I could blog about this or that. I try to justify it by thinking it's time wisely spent. Photoshop much?

Working on
a presentation for my Politics and Cinema class. Me and my friend watched 2 films by Ken Loach - Carla's Song and Land and Freedom and we are discussing 2 set questions. Which reminds me I should be making the powerpoint right now.


Thinking about

people, and how you can love them and hate them at the same time. Friends, and how they change. How there's always something to do and yet you're still bored. Also dreaming about what I would do or more like where I'd go if I won the euromillions.

Anticipating
Keele Varsity in March. My trip to Norway and Denmark on the 4th of April. My Birthday on the 19th of April even though I am dreading to be 20. My trip around England at the end of April, Edinburgh, York... Also trying to figure out what to do with my summer, what flat to get in September when I'm back at Masaryk Uni as I am so over halls.

Listening to

Oh Land is my current obsession. I absolutely love her music. My three favourite tracks are Perfection, White Nights and Voodoo. Her albums are currently on repeat. Then Feist. And Toro y Moi. Also I have recently discovered Regina Spektor and I love two of her songs Samson and Laughing With.

Eating
noodles! Stir-fries, Rice and ready-meals. Not proud of the last one. And then toasties. My favourite would be a decent bread, as decent as English bread can get, with philadelphia spread, slices of brie and on top of that chorizo. And then pancakes, I love pancakes. I have discovered meringues and I even hand whipped the cream to go with them. You are meant to eat them with berries but what I do is I have them with sliced banana topped up with a spoon of nutela. I eat so healthily.

Wishing

for real friendships. For ideas to write fiction about. For self-discipline. Wishing I could be snowboarding as so many of my friends back home are. In waist deep powder. Oh and... wishing to win the euromillions, that goes without saying.  Or just to find someone insanely rich to marry.

xx

feature

Today I'm posting a song that has been on my mind for the past 2 weeks. The song is by Zuzana Navarová, czech singer, songwriter, musician and producer.  I remember my mum buying her CDs and listening to them at home when I was smaller. I don't really care much for country genre but I grew to like her music. Zuzana Navarová died in December 2004, aged 45. She had breast cancer. She fought the illness for many years and tried to keep it a secret. The song is called Angelical. The lyrics are a challenge to translate and perhaps don't make much sense in English. The chorus would go:

I am counting the skies
The kisses I will never get
I love you
and then I fall asleep and wake up
And so...

xx

last days of autumn semester

Perhaps I am fast forwarding a little, I have not posted anything about Keele yet and I am already posting about the end of the first semester. I have just finished editing these so I thought why not share them. These pictures were taken on the 19th and 20th of January, just a couple days before Hannah, Theresa and Mareike - my German friends - left. We went out to do a little photoshoot and have KPA lunch (will post a picture of the famous KPA sandwich later) after everyone's exams have been finished. The lowest of the diptychs is their leaving dinner in the Sneyd Arms, local pub. Visit soon girls!

xx